September 2011
1 post
030911
Today I chose my clothes, I did my make up, well, I really liked my eyebrows today.
I wore my favorite tights, it always make me feel I’m special.
I know I looked good today, at least to myself.
And the night turned out to be another bad night.
I hate to dish this out to you but have you ever really truly want to help me integrate into this hostile environment at all? Why...
May 2011
1 post
As the saying goes...
I believe that one’s life depends on one’s decisions, and solely on that. Like what one can interpret from 種瓜得瓜， 種豆得豆.
Basically, you harvest what you plant. Which I’ll say what you receive will base on your decision. And ya it is actually revolving around the ideology of Karma.
Then why do I never get what I’ve decided on? Why do I always get shit? I didn’t plant...
March 2011
3 posts
29 March 2011
Rarely do I wish for anything. However, right now, I just want an outlet for the mess I’m feeling. I think I need a punching bag, or a pool to jump into, or an empty space to shout at, or a light to run to.
Actually you know what I just need to fucking slim down. All my problems will be solved instantly.
Theres so much to say, but not here and not to anyone or anywhere. I am going to...
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Your skin is a peculiar mixture of purple velvet, mocha scented candles and tom-yam noodles warmth.
Strange yet comfortable.
December 2010
2 posts
Then again...
I changed my mind I discovered many beautiful cameras today. I SHOULD CUT OFF MY WIFI AT HOME UGHHHH. Okay la but at least like that Im making smart choices with my money BUT SERIOUSLY YOU KNOW I VERY INDECISIVE AND EASILY INFLUENCED AND SWAYED RIGHT KNN.
Anyway I feel like a Godzila because I FEEL LIKE FUCKING TEARING EVERYTHING AROUND ME DOWN AND STOMPING ON ALL OF THOSE RUBBISH AND JUST ROLL...
Plans I have for future money
Before I even start on the never ending list of useless things I want I would like to say,
KNNCCB YOU KNOW HOW LONG I TYPE THE FUCKING ENTRY GOT PICTURE SOME MORE YOU NEVER SAVE AS DRAFT NEVER POST KNN WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
WASTE MY TIME!
Okay NOW I FEEL SO LAZY TO EVEN TYPE OUT WHAT I WANT YOU KNOW OR NOT FUCK.
1. Diana with Flash
Okay now I can develop my pictures. I am not excited now because I...
November 2010
7 posts
Rubbish bin
All of you come to me with your problems. I can take it all in. No problem. I can take anything in. My ears are good I can listen and my lips are sealed, I know I’m good at this and I appreciate and want to listen.
But what about my problems?
tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?
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Ypuff
Recently I’ve been questioned why I gave myself the nickname Ypuff.
Actually it wasnt given by me. It was given by my best friend in Animal Crossing which is this game that was like a fucking black hole that sucked me in. She is this goat that has blue shiny eyes. She asked me if she can call me Ypuff.
And it stuck.
By the way apparently when the animals in Animal Crossing gives you...
The Photojojo Store
I found a fabulous website today!
And look at all these! I am so eggcited, I want all of these… :’(
Obviously drawn the the moustache thats all.
I am thinking of selling my Mini 7s and get this new Mini 25. But.. I like the wide format one too. So I really don’t know. ALSO there is another one that is only available in Japan…
See how my life sucks?
...
October 2010
2 posts
Maybe
Say you’ll stay, don’t come and go like you do. Sway my way, yeah I need to know, all about you.
I don’t want to say. I don’t want to be the weaker one. I want to dominate you. I want to engulf you.
Because like the sea, I’ll be a wave. I’m worth it.
Trust me, I’m worth it.
May 2010
13 posts
When did I become like this?
When have I stopped believing that I can be better? When have I stopped believing in myself and others? When have I stopped enjoying the simplest things in life? When have I stopped having friends? When have i stopped letting people into my heart and understand whats going on in my mind? When have I stopped controlling myself and allowed these pills to instead? When...
i can buy another whore
i want to shave my fucking hair off
this world has no place for miserable people. only places for people who are contented, satisfied and thus, happy. what the fuck? happy?!
happiness is a lie.
and nobody loves. only want to.
huh is it really thatttt dumb to believe? ):
i am done being nice. i think im too nice.
i do not need your negativity, i do not need you to tell me what to do. you are suppose to listen. not tell me things that will bring me down.
i have a brain, you knew better. i am not that irrational as i seem to be. ya i do alot of stupid immature things and i seek for attention. i warned you. but that does not mean i dont have a brain, or common senses to understand people and what they...
i miss feeling
i cant get over one, another one play mind games.
WHAT DO YOU ALL WANT?!
you are behaving like i did smth wrong, i didnt. you did
who gave you the rights to treat me this way huh?
PEOPLE STEP OVER U LIKE DIRT U WORSHIP THEM LIKE GOLD FOR WHAT FUCK?!
i know karma is coming to pay me back. yay. i will i will i will i will be strong i will i will i will i will not fall in love. i will protect myself.
whats the point if every single time people hurt you and step all over you. i have my honey chicken i have my other vices i have everything i have i have everything i need.
FINE you dont want to work it out i will work myself out. i will remember...
April 2010
4 posts
I see this post from a month ago, and I just want to die. I AM SO FUCKING RIGHT I AM SO FUCKING RIGHT AND GUESS WHAT? this time its telling me that im never gonna be okay.
“nobody will laugh at my jokes anymore. nobody will pat me on the head. nobody will ask me to go and shower when im dirty. nobody will ask me to clean my room up and then clean it up for me. nobody will ask me to get back...
you gave me this letter, and told me that if i keep it, we will get back together. i kept it
i like, totally feel this nausea shit man.
cant believe this is really the end of 5 years. i only have myself to blame anyway. comfort is right before me, and i wish i can jump into it. but i wont. i will just find a way to numb myself. as long as possible. i am feeling damn low.
if you want something hard enough, if you are willing to do anything, then you will get it. thats what you taught me.
on a side note.. imma be imma be imma be be be
February 2010
19 posts
if im skinny im good, so my aim now is 38
nobody will laugh at my jokes anymore. nobody will pat me on the head. nobody will ask me to go and shower when im dirty. nobody will ask me to clean my room up and then clean it up for me. nobody will ask me to get back to work, and check what i have left to do. nobody will watch hk drama series with me. nobody will ask me to watch how much im spending. nobody will calculate my money for me....
:(
i cant wait for you to let me in anymore. i dont know if i can keep getting knock back down. so why dont you try to let yourself in instead?
14885.) I know I dont know much about love, but...
blogsecret:
I love him. He is mine and I am his. We are perfect (no kidding). But I am so afraid of losing this because I want this to last FOREVER<3
OMG YOU’RE SPEAKING ALIEN LANGUAGE DARLING
p no.1: dont need to announce so loud, want anyone else just go ahead we are friends like you said. so yeah.
p no 2: you used to ignore your girlfriend just to talk to me now everything else seems more important, do i deserve this, truly?
p no 3: hello :)
p no 4: yucks.
okay kitty phone here i come, before i start crying again.
actually there are alot of things i want to do. example, get a hair cut, go find schools for future studies, grad show stuff, my web files not submitted, fix my watch, play sims 3, read my book…. okay cannot finish.
today, i wanted to buy a phone. now im contemplating if i should. after all, if theres nobody to text or call anymore, what is your phone for then? hmmm. I dont really know? but...
i know im childish, i like it this way
its like a slap in my face man
this is getting from bad to like, worse, to like, volcano eruption. my house is in a mess and my life too. i dont know what to do.
“Strawberry Shortcake”
– Dee Tan (via deetan)
actually if you ask me to go to zouk now, i will.
5 minutes ago i was thinking “i tell you if you dont reply me now i really really hate you”
okay you really never reply.
i dont like this feeling at all, it sucks. people never change. i think i prefer my imaginary world, where its really 100 times better.
i think you’re eating my ego up theres so much things i want to say and i cant say it anywhere